Learning to relax..

When’s the last time I was truly relaxed? In my lockdown bubble of newborn love and simplicity, not forgetting lack of judgement because you couldn’t see anyone for them to judge you- awesome. Walks, naps with a fresh beautiful human and baking, all kept me going pretty well. I then remember a blue sky holiday when I was young and too naive to appreciate what I had, sipping a Pina colada as my thoughts were just on the book in my hand. Generally being away from people has had positive affect at times.

I have lived in a chronic state of uncertainty and fear. Over the last year I’ve had the light shone on my mindset, on how much I’ve normalised anxiety and held myself back in life. Anxiety doesn’t define me, yet I’ve let it do exactly that for decades. Keeping myself down in less than nurturing environments and ignoring my responsibility to myself- to live life authentically and joyfully.

With age comes gratitude and a little more acceptance of myself including my eccentricities I’ve often tried to hide. It’s actually in our uniqueness that we will thrive. “It wouldn’t do, if we were all the same” my Gran would often say and she was right. We try to be like other people, to “fit in” but what is fitting in exactly? Copying and conforming, often to the wrong ideas and through this we can restrict our own growth because we’re too scared to be “different”. Too scared of other people’s judgements, of other people’s ideas of what we should be doing. If people don’t like us for who we are, then why are we listening to their opinions?

To be more Me is my main goal for this year, less fearful and more Can Do. To hone into my interests, find new things to try and meet new people. When you relax into yourself, you find the world relaxes around you. Good things have a way of magically gravitating towards you when you’re living life purposefully and actively seeking challenges that encourage growth.

Some of my goals for this year- See more of friends and family. Read more. Write more. Go on more family holidays.

What things can you do to be more You?